November is almost here.....

and you know what that means!?! It's time for NaNoWriMo! Yes, once again I'm challenging myself, and any of you who are game, to join and write a 50,000 word novel in one month. See the icon on the side bar to navigate to the official NaNo site.

So, as October 31st turns to November 1st I will be hovering over my keyboard getting ready to type feverishly. I still need a topic for this year. This year I am working a full time job, making it even more difficult to reach the goal, I will do my best though! I will not be defeated! I will write 50,000 words, they may not all be good words, but they will be words!

Any way, the posts will be few and far between, even fewer than normal, just know that I'm still here and writing away. I will try to keep you all informed on my progress. If you decide to join the madness, I mean fun, you can add me as a writing buddy.

Live fully.....

A Quick Update

I really love my new job. I am working with a great group of people. The company I work for just acquired a bookkeeping service, and I will be the one to take over that part of the business. I am very busy, and like being busy. More on this when I'm not so tired.

Jerry and I are trying to work on our marriage. He has moved back into the house. He has his own room. We are both trying to make it work, we both want it to work. He has even started hanging up pictures, something that hasn't been done for quite some time. I am happy and hopeful. Life is good. I will post more when I'm not so tired.

I'm still trying to get used to getting up every morning, and going to work. I'm tired when I get home, I'm also happy at being tired.

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I've got reason to celebrate!

I got the job I've been waiting on. I had several interviews with them, and they liked me well enough to hire me! I am so excited! I start on Friday, I am a bookkeeper for several clients. It is so good to know that I will now have money coming in to pay the bills. That is one less thing to worry about. I know that I will enjoy working for this company, they are very nice people. If I get the clients done that I have to do for the week, I can then take an extra day for the weekend if I want, or I can take on more clients. I like the idea of some flexibility in my schedule. It will be up to me to keep my clients happy and sticking to the program that has been set up.

I also cut my hair, and put highlights in it. It is shoulder length, I'm still getting used to how short it is. I will change my picture soon.

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It's that time of year again!

It's time to take the National Novel Writing Month challenge. I am once again trying to write 50,000 words in one month. The month of October is the time to sign up, November is when the writing takes place. Go to NaNoWriMo to join in on the madness. Take the challenge, I dare you!

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Goals made and some acheived

I've made several goals for myself, and have actually achieved some. Others will take time to reach, that's the way it works though. Last weeks goals were to start getting Jerry's things packed and ready for him to pick up, get Julie's car out of my yard, get Jeff's stuff out of the house, start getting rubbish out for bulk trash pick up, and start the paperwork for a Legal Separation. Last weeks goals achieved: all of them!

This weeks goals are to get more of Jerry's stuff packed (if I wait for him to do it, it may not get done), finish one more item finished for State Fair entry, get a job, get information on going back to school, and get resume written. I have written and sent out my resume, signed up at monster.com, have had two interviews at Temporary services, and have one more interview tomorrow. I have an appointment with a college adviser on Friday, I want to become a counselor. I am still working on the item for the State Fair, I am almost done with it, it and other things will be turned into the fair on Saturday. I will post pictures of these items at some point in time.

I have also been meditating everyday, and doing Tai Chi. I have found that both of these things have helped me to become focused and to generally feel allot better. Even though I am not a morning person I have been waking up before 8 am every morning without using an alarm clock.

I want to thank everyone who listened, gave me a shoulder to cry on, prayed for me, sent good thoughts my way, and was generally very supportive. I appreciate everyone of you, and I will be talking to you all again about how I feel and what is going on in my life. Thank you all for being in my life and for your help.

Live fully......I finally am......

Life changing events

Life has taken some strange twists and turns in the past week or so. Jerry has decided to leave me. The reasons that he has given me seem very superficial, not that they aren't true, just doesn't really seem to be "marriage breaking" reasons. He says he wants to live on his own, he doesn't want to put me through the worsening of his emphysema, he can't make me happy, musicians make lousy husbands, and other things like this. He can't even look me in the eyes when he is telling me his reasons.

He had a few complaints about me, I'm not a great house keeper, and I've been depressed off and on for several years, so things didn't get done that should have. I agreed that I shouldn't have let the house or myself go, so I started doing the things that I should do. It was a few days after this that he told me he was leaving me. You will all be glad to know that I am still cleaning things up, though it will take time to get the house back into shape.

At first I was very upset, cried for a long time that day and into that night. Then I was angry, very angry because I couldn't believe that he wanted to leave for such simple reasons. I cried some more, after that I was just pissed. I was mad for most of this past weekend. Sometime Sunday afternoon I went from being mad to being frustrated over the whole thing. I'm frustrated that he hinted at others that he would be leaving before he said anything to me. I'm frustrated that he can't face his own demons, denies that they even exist. I'm frustrated that he won't or can't say what the underlying reason he wants to leave really is. I am very familiar with my own problems, and bad habits, and I'm working on them.

I think that a marriage should be worked at, that problems should be worked though. I don't like giving up on this marriage without even trying to work out the problems, yet that's what he wants to do. So, with that in mind, I went to the court house today and filed for a Legal Separation. It is the best way for me to protect myself, get what I need, and I'll be able to initiate counseling. We both could use the counseling.

I feel stronger now than I ever have before. I'm growing as a person, and will continue to do so through this whole separation/counseling/divorce thing that I have to go through.

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New Grandson!!!!

Talena had him early this morning. He weighed in at 8lbs 10ozs and 21 1/2 inches long. He's a big boy. His name is Gage. I will put more pictures up soon. I took several, I just need to edit them so that they will fit here.

Mother, son and father are doing great.

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